T R U S T .

Thanks for ruining my mood, sir.

2009-04-28T11:01:00.004+08:00

What a friend you are,
you can get so pissed off just because I REFUSED TO HELP YOU SEARCH FOR A SONG when you DON'T EVEN FUCKING REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT IT EXCEPT THAT IT'S A SONG FROM DO AS INFINITY WHICH I SENT YOU LIKE THREE YEARS AGO.
And fuck, it wasn't logical to say something like "YOU SHOULD FUCKING KNOW IT BECAUSE YOU SENT IT", if so, i can also say that YOU SHOULD FREAKING REMEMBER IT WHEN IT'S A SONG WHICH SENT BY ME TO YOU THAT TIME.

SERIOUSLY,
DON'T FUCKING ADVISE ME TO FORGIVE SOMEONE I HATE WHEN WHAT YOU DID WAS JUST "FORGIVING" ME AND KEEP DIGGING UP WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST TO SHOOT ME WHEN I'M UNABLE TO HELP YOU DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. It will be so uncool for me to be doing something like what you're doing now.
AND ON TOP OF THAT, YOU'RE DOING IT WILLINGLY THAT TIME, IT'S NOT LIKE I'M TAKING A GUN AND BLACKMAILING YOU OR WHAT. DON'T FUCKING BUY ME ANYTHING/GIVE ME ANYTHING WHEN YOU KNEW THAT YOUSELF WILL BE UPSET/COMPLAINING ABOUT IT WHEN I REJECTED YOU. RELATIONSHIPS JUST DON'T GO THAT WAY, OK?

FUCK, NOW I FEEL SO PROUD THAT I ACTUALLY DIDN'T ACCEPT A GUY LIKE YOU LAST TIME. :D

What a beautiful song,

2009-04-03T13:29:00.001+08:00

The flowers are cherry blossoms, you are beautiful
The spring sunbeams streaming through the leaves, your smile
Winter is ending, the snow is melting
In your heart, spring has arrived

I'm being totally moodless recently, don't ask me why.
Maybe it's because that Limmy took away my very precious first time forcefully. ):

Birthday,

2009-03-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

Thank you, for the birthday wishes and presents! :D
(Name listed in random order.)

Limmy, Leinel, Sing Chean, Yen Siang shuai ge, Vincent korkor(Are you happy? LOL.), Shean Ying, Wee Wen, Lin Yee, Pei Wen, Seok Hwa, Ming Yang, Hanson, Charles, Derrick, Jeff, Gallan, Xero, Keni(Sorry i was away when the time you sent me that messege though), Helix, Kaguya, Jasmin, ~~and the others which i actually can't recall who they are for now..~~

THANKS! I'm really happy today! :3

Current to do: Gifts for Veron and Limmy, complete my profile at MAL, clear my pending stuffs, pass my real deal driving test as soon as possible.

Busy week ahead.

2009-03-19T21:05:00.002+08:00

Previous post deleted due to Yen Siang shuai ge's nag on MSN yesterday.

Wasn't online for the past few days (Even if you saw me online, i will be using my mobile phone to online), since myself wasn't at home plus being busy, and eventhough i get to online MSN using my laptop now, i will be busy until next Monday, most probably. Why? It's because that myself actually bought five volumes of Kieli's novel which cost me around RM133, therefore i started to work part time to prevent myself from being broke. So even if you saw me online on MSN, i might be busying, at least i'm pretty sure that it will last until next Monday, or so.

As a conclusion, if you ever chatted with me in MSN but i didn't reply you, please don't be upset. :(

LIMMY IS EPIC WIN.

2009-02-25T01:58:00.003+08:00

Whatever,

2009-02-24T10:06:00.012+08:00

I started to wondering,
is there even a reason for me to push myself so hard?

When nobody is even appreciating it?

I just won't talk to you anymore until you realized what you've done all along, by your own. Pfft.

"And if you see him in the streets, walk past him and give him a 'WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?' stare. Or if he talks to you, kick him in the balls as if he's harrassing you xD."

I must admit that myself actually like this quote alot, thanks, Limmy. ♥

At least you've been there, cheering me up.

& i fall in love with this song instantly after watching Gundam 00 S2's episode 20. It might be a little confusing for those who didn't watch Gundam 00 though, but meh, i'm going to blog it anyway since i think that it's kinda touching. (?)

Lyle: "No doubt, to make you be my woman once again. Willingly or not, what’s want should snatch it over, even though you were innovators."
Anew: "Fortunately I’m innovators, otherwise I can’t meet you and we were just passerby at the corner of the world."
Lyle: "Why? As long can continue to live."
Anew: "Life without you would be meaningless. Tell me, have we really loved?"
Lyle: "Of course."

Besides that, i feel kinda bad that Lyle beat Setsuna up afterwards anyway. And seriously, i think i prefer Gundam 00 over Code Geass now. (But Lelouch will always be in my top5 favourite characters, that's it.)

..也许我还真的不是一般的脆弱。

2009-02-16T15:46:00.000+08:00

别人总说
时间会慢慢的将一切冲淡

我妈说
我每当喜欢一个人的时候
总都会把感情放得太深

可是
当你真正喜欢上一个人的时候
这些东西真的可以控制得住吗

自己真的很害怕再受到那种伤害
也许对于某些人来说我这种想法很自私吧
可是我不想在这时候让自己崩溃

那时候所承受的痛苦我还感觉得到
可不是一般的痛
每天好像行尸走肉般的生活不停的哭泣着
只是在朋友和家人面前我不得不装做坚强起来

在那一个月里
家人为了自己每天以泪洗面的事情有多担心
妈妈甚至为了自己在半夜里偷偷哭泣
我是知道的

所以我没有选择
只好装着什么事情也没有的去上课
但在几个月后
我却发觉自己还是承受不来
所以就没再继续读下去了

爸爸那时候很生气
同学们都问我为何突然间不读了

但是
妈妈却说她会尊重我的决定
那时候的我真的很感动
她明明就知道我那么任性却还说那种话

有人说过
并不是因为我忘不了
而是因为我自己不想忘记

但你确定真的是那样吗
你确定我没自己没努力过吗

我几乎用尽了一切力气试着去忘记
但为何到现在我却都还会想起
都一年多了为什么我还是忘记不了
这点连我自己也很想知道

如果我的记忆
也可以像电脑那样不喜欢的话
就直接把它丢进recycle bin里消除掉
那该有多好

..正因为如此我没办法再完全相信任何人
抱歉我真的没办法再像以前那样
对着自己喜欢的人撒娇老是粘着自己所喜欢的人
并不是因为我不想
而是因为我懂要是自己一直那样的话
若有一天你离我而去我也许真的会疯掉

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后或会走